today was bittersweet. and a little tough emotionally.
When I first started looking for another job, I figured I’d sail away from this one never wanting to look back. But a funny think happened over this past summer. Some of us became a small team.
And well, now I’ve left the team, and had to say goodbye today.
I didn’t think there’d be anything about this job I’d miss, but now it turns out there will be a handful of people I’ll miss. I’m surprised about that. When I left my first job to take this one, I was ready to go. I see the rare company update on LinkedIn, but other than that I haven’t kept up with anyone from that job.
I’m surprised that I feel different about this most recent job. It’s not like we’re friends that hang out outside of work. Maybe it’s just that I’m hopeful for these co-workers that they too will get the chance to escape, and I want to hear about it when it happens. I do really want them to have the good life that’s out there waiting for them. But it’s up to them to find it.
I can’t do it for them, and I couldn’t stay there waiting any longer. I’ve rebuilt a good life for myself, and it’s only going to get better. I hope I’m setting a good example for them, that you can work through adversity and don’t have to settle for less than what you’re worthy of.
And even though I know I have to move on, it was still hard to say goodbye.