changed my tagline on SI a while ago. now it’s time to start working on me again.
I’ve been drifting backwards, again. My inaction is speaking louder than my actions.
Things are not going well in the marriage or in the reconciliation process. Both of us are falling back into old habits. As far as husband is concerned, all changes hinge on my behavior. If I change how I act, he’ll act differently too. But as soon as I have negative emotions, he’s back to being an ass again. At least, that’s my take on things. What he really thinks, I might never know.
but ya know, I can’t control how he thinks or reacts. the only person I have control over is me.
For a while now, I’ve focused on the marriage and I’ve focused on R. I’m still not happy. So it’s time to bring the focus back to me. I just have to keep reminding myself that I’m worth it.